31st January 2009

Grand Funk

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Won’t you take me to Funk Town was my alternative title.  Notice that’s not “funkY” town.

For the past few weeks, I have been sinking deeper and deeper into a funk.  Enough so that my lovely OmegaDad is upstairs doing kitcheny magic kinda things for OmegaDotter’s birthday party tomorrow, rather than me.  When I wandered into the kitchen and said that he was taking things over, he said, “Well, I thought I ought to, because you seem to be in a funk, so I thought I’d help.”

“I see a red door and I want it painted black.”  Everything I try to think of to cheer myself up is not working. 

My internal dialogues are going somewhat like this:

Happy Me:  Oh, look at all the beautiful fresh new snow!

UberFunk Me:  Yeah.  Snow.  Still more snow.  I am so sick of snow.

Happy Me:  And the sunshine sparkling all over the snow–isn’t it wonderful?!

UberFunk Me:  You mean the sunshine that is just now coming back?  The sunshine that isn’t warming anything up?  The sunshine that’s going to go into hyperdrive and not let anyone sleep in just a few months?  That sunshine?

Happy Me:  You could go out and play in the snow, you know!

UberFunk Me:  Ugh.  It’s cold out there.  And the snow will get in my boots and melt, and then my feet will freeze and I’ll get frostbite.  No thanks.

Happy Me:  Oh, c’mon!  In a few more months, it’ll be spring, and you’ll be able to hang out in the yard all the time, and the grass and trees will be a lovely green and the flowers will be blooming.  Keep thinking of that!

UberFunk Me:  Excuse me.  To think of that, I have to think of “a few more months” of winter.

Happy Me:  Well, at least the volcano isn’t erupting, this is good news!

UberFunk Me:  Volcano.  It’s not enough that we have cold and snow and winter for another three months; I have to worry about a goddamned volcano, too?!  Just wait until it erupts and the ash fall hits.  That’ll be fun.

Happy Me:  But it hasn’t happened yet, so it’s not likely to.

UberFunk Me:  Whoop-de-doo.  It’s gonna erupt, and we’re going to be buried in inches of ash, and we’ll have to wear dust masks and goggles and buy a dozen new car air filters and change them over and over again…

Happy Me:  … Well, if it does erupt, it won’t last too long.  Hey, look on the bright side:  When you start your new shorter hours in a few weeks, you’ll have all that extra time, and you can go exercise, or check out the yoga place!

UberFunk Me:  Yup.  That’s just ducky.  I have to have shorter work hours plus no-pay furlough days because our economy is in the crapper.  We’ll also have to keep a tighter rein on our spending, and change our eating habits, and what are we going to do about summer camp?!

Happy Me:  Um.  Well, hey, at least you’ll still have a job!  Lots of people don’t have that any more, so we’ve got it good, right?

UberFunk Me:  …

Happy Me:  Changing the subject!  Isn’t it cute how excited the dotter is about her birthday party?!

UberFunk Me:  Yeah.  Right.  I should be the one upstairs figuring out how to do a unicorn cake, not OmegaDad.  I’m letting everyone down.  I’m no fun.  I’m no good.

Happy Me:  …

UberFunk Me:  I just want to go into the bedroom, draw the drapes, lie down, and stew in my funk.

Happy Me:  … 

This is with my happy pills and with my magic light.  I’d hate to think of what it would be like without them!  So tell me what you all do when you’re stuck in a funk and can’t seem to get out!  Surely I’m not the only one who gets into the doldrums like this (though it has been a hella long time since I’ve been in a funk like this).

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There are currently 20 responses to “Grand Funk”

  1. 1 On January 31st, 2009, Lauri said:

    Uggh.. me too… me too

    I just spent $85 on my hair hoping a new look would do me good…. but it is just darker now.. thank goodness it will wash out eventually. I do like me new cut

  2. 2 On January 31st, 2009, Snick said:

    New poster here! Hi!

    If the blue funk happens to me (and it does!), I let it happen. I don’t fight it. I just go with it. I found that if I just roll with it, it stops much more quickly than if I fight it. If I fight it, it goes on and on and on and on and on…ugh!

    Good luck. It sucks in the winter!
    Snick :)

  3. 3 On January 31st, 2009, Theresa said:

    Crawling out from under my pile of blankets to say me too! I thought I was going to get so much accomplished after the holidays this year since a major stressor had been lifted when we managed to get my dad into skilled care but all I want to do is sleep. For the past few years January is when I have hit bottom with SAD.

    Lately I have been just giving in to it and forcing myself to go to bed much earlier.

    I’m on the east coast and I don’t know how you are managing up there in the tundra. Dd convinced me recently to order those goofy Snuggies so we were huddled under those tonight watching TV.

    Happy happy 7th bday to OD! Our dd will be 7 at the end of March. Best wishes with the party prep.

  4. 4 On January 31st, 2009, Johnny said:

    Hang in there. There is no magic wand that makes everything hunky dory.

  5. 5 On January 31st, 2009, AmericanFamily said:

    Right there with you, girl friend. I know when all this flipping snow melts, I will feel better. Right now, though, I am grouchiness personified. Every year, I swear the next year we will take a warm vacation in January, but so far we haven’t. Next year, we must!

  6. 6 On January 31st, 2009, preTzel said:

    I am in a funk but I stopped fighting it. I can be in a funk all I want but still function. If I stop funKtioning then we have a problem. A big one.

    Go play a new game. I’ve been playing games all day long. And when my oven blew tonight? I didn’t even get upset about not being able to make my quick dessert cake because that meant I had more time for my games. Build A Lot, Wild West II, the new hidden object game called Mystery PI: New York. Go play some games Kate. Get your mind off the snow, the volcano, and other things that are bearing down on you. Shake it off like new fallen snow.

    And a PRO to SNOW? No moose eating your veggies. ;)

  7. 7 On January 31st, 2009, D2 said:

    I get into those moods - when I’m just annoyed about everything, nothing is right, everyone is just unfair and… you get the picture.

    After all these years I still haven’t figured out how to get out of them - K2 tends to send me away to be by myself until I feel better.

    Sorry, not much help, but at least commiserating, I guess.

  8. 8 On January 31st, 2009, del said:

    Sometimes I can break out of a funk by watching “Curb Your Enthusiasm” episodes on DVD. But usually not even Larry David can rescue me and I just have to let it run its miserable course. Yuck. I hope you feel better soon.

  9. 9 On January 31st, 2009, Elaine said:

    Heh. Well, I live where it *is* hot and the sun shines all the freaking time unless it is pouring down rain and ya know what? Even here there’s a funk. And a volcano.

  10. 10 On February 1st, 2009, Kaz Jones said:

    I have a friend with clinical depression. She has found the one sure-fire way of helping lift the Black Dog is to exercise. Which is the very last thing she ever wants to do, even when she’s feeling well. But it helps, so she does it. Perhaps you could borrow a Wii off someone and try WiiFit? It IS very entertaining…

  11. 11 On February 1st, 2009, Anne said:

    I will echo the sentiments of exercise to help with the funk. Try a combination of yoga and aerobic/strength training.

  12. 12 On February 1st, 2009, Mae said:

    I am in the same head space.I’m going to see the DR about some hormone therapy. I cannot take the mood swings and they get worse the older I get. It’s on schedule with my cycle each month but it’s getting harder and harder to “snap out of” and “deal with.” Phhht. Can’t snap out of it. Wish I could. So hard to be in a funk when you’re a mom. I sympathize completely.

  13. 13 On February 1st, 2009, GrannyJ said:

    Perhaps you might spend some time on a tropical island in Second Life — or is that too chancy an idea…

  14. 14 On February 1st, 2009, noreen said:

    I woke up this morning, like I have for the past month and thought I just wanted to stay in bed. Every year at this time it happens. But then it got better. The thermometer went up to almost 40 degrees farenheit, I realized we have daylight until almost 5:45 p.m. I know it will be colder tomorrow and we might get more snow, but the moral of this story is contained in the Beatles song, “Here Comes the Sun.” I have no secrets, no words of advice, but I’ve lived in this world longer than you and somehow I know at some point the world looks brighter, and happier when you can go outside without boots, gloves, earmuffs and scarves. And somehow, that makes things better. But, I never want to live in a 12-month round warm climate, which has never made sense, but I like my Northern climate, really.

  15. 15 On February 1st, 2009, Omega Unk said:

    Don’ worry, evathin gonna wukout rite.

    Unk

  16. 16 On February 2nd, 2009, Carol Anne said:

    I watch “Ferris Buehler’s Day Off”. It’s the only thing that can make me smie when I’m in a funk. Hugging a warm critter is helpful, too. Got any snuggly chickens you could bring in the house for a little bit? Or maybe set up some chicken races in the kitchen?

  17. 17 On February 2nd, 2009, carosgram said:

    Good grief omegamom, don’t be hard on yourself about being in a funk. You live in Alaska where it is dark and cold for a long time each year - your family is far away and raising a child and trying to have a life are just about impossible. If you weren’t in a funk I would think there was something wrong with you. But “The sun will come out tomorrow, tomorrow bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow there’ll be sun”. It’s only about 90 days away. Till then keep your chin up and keep punting. Thinking of you and wishing you the best!!!!

  18. 18 On February 2nd, 2009, Sister Carrie said:

    This has been a long, yucky winter for some reason. At least our snow is gone. I really don’t know how you manage it, living in the frozen tundra when you are a child of the golden Southwest. You could not have found two places that are more different. I hope spring comes soon.

  19. 19 On February 4th, 2009, Kate said:

    Hi, O;
    I’m in the same state of mind and I don’t even have a good excuse to feel this way. At least you have unicorns to be creative with and unicorns are horses and those make me smile. Just wanted to add myself to your long list of friends saying you are not alone…

  20. 20 On February 4th, 2009, spacemom said:

    It’s been a long winter.I feel it too.
    Sending you lots of hugs.

    Also I am very impressed that you have copyrighted your blog from year 0-2009! :)You are QUITE the author!

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